Monday, August 22, 2011
"Am I in your way Sir?"
As I'm standing in front of the 'Grab & Go' case the woman stocking the case asks me, "Am I in your way Sir?" Immediately I think, "Should I say anything or just nod? I'm just not in the mood for profuse apologies." Speaking would more likely get them whereas just nodding would let the moment pass peacefully. I found myself saying, in somewhat of a deeper voice then I actually have, "Oh no. I'm just not sure what I want." Then my hand went up to my chest and I sort of beat on it with a flat palm. You know how guys do sometimes? Almost like I was beating on my chest because my voice didn't sound right. Like I had a cold or something. Or it was some sort of primal Tarzan thing. Who knows?
Her response to me was simply, "Ok. Let me know if I can move out of your way or get you anything." I thank her and go about grabbing my food, paying for it and walking out of the store. All the while thinking, "I just passed for a guy even after I spoke. Cool!"
Why was it cool? I'm not a trans guy so I'm not really trying to pass as a guy but there have been times when passing was just easier and most definitely safer. On this occasion, though, I think it was more about affirming my masculinity.
I have to say, it felt pretty damn good.