In thinking about my post from yesterday and how I've been feeling these past few days, I think I need to take a moment to focus on what I have accomplished in this life so far because right now I feel like a complete failure.
Yes, I'm not sitting in a very attractive place and I have a lot to work on but do you know how I got here? By making the best decisions I knew how to at the time.
I served our country in the Marines. I graduated from basic training #1 out of 100 women and I graduated from diesel mechanics training #3 out of 50 men.
I raised a son who has grown up to be a very loving and compassionate and creative addition to this world. For seven years, between the ages of 2 and 9, I did it on my own. I was in my 20's back then, as well, and received no help financially from his Father.
I put myself through college to earn a Bachelor's degree.
I put my son through college so he could earn a Bachelor's degree.
I became a published author. In an actual book.
I helped open a youth GLBTQI center in San Diego.
I served as treasurer for Southern Oregon GLSEN.
I helped start a women's professional football team in Portland that still exists for women who have always wanted to play full contact football.
I walked away from a job that was killing my soul and supported myself through odd jobs, walking dogs and taking photographs.
I ran a successful Kickstarter campaign for a photo project that is very close to my heart. It funded $10,000 for my travels around the US and Canada.
I did what I needed to do to raise my son and to survive and I gave back to my community as well as I could. Now I get to take my turn in this life and find my happiness. I get to make that decision to go back to school and start on a new path and as my Mom pointed out, that is loving myself.
There. That feels a bit better.