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So, I’m a wee bit late with posting this but wanted to get it up anyway. (Please refrain from the ‘get it up' jokes. Wait. On second thought, go right ahead. Heh.)
Towards the end of last month the incredibly talented writer, Sinclair Sexsmith, posted on her blog that she was beginning another project that was yet to be named but needed other writers help with it. She started a symposium with a writing prompt and the following is my contribution.
What is butch? How do you define butch? What do you love about it? What does it mean to you?
Last month I attended the Butch Voices Conference here in Portland and learned that the term ‘butch’ can be defined in so many ways. For me, it’s simply a more masculine centered in identity.
No matter how much I am against putting myself in a box by claiming the title of ‘butch’, I have learned to be much more ok with it after attending the conference and talking to others about the term and what it means to them. You see, the thing about words and titles is that you can mold and define them for yourself.
I am just me. A boots, jeans and t-shirt wearing, motorcycle riding, butch lesbian with a buzz cut. I like to think of myself as mostly a guy but I’m not. I’m a woman. I like things that are stereotypically things that guys like and I present as masculine but that’s only a small part of who I am. I am a complicated being filled with thoughts and feelings and likes and dislikes with a little bit of mystery locked in there.
I love the idea that, as a butch woman who often is mistaken for a man, I can travel between genders almost fluidly. I can bind and pack and still feel like a woman. An incredibly empowered and strong woman.
Being butch means I challenge gender stereotypes on a daily basis simply by existing in this world. I’ve grown comfortable and almost proud of the fact that I am called “Sir” on a daily basis. On the outside I may look like a man, but under these boots, jeans and t-shirt, I am all woman. Comfortable and confident in these clothes and in this skin. I am me.