365.6 Cute As Hell

365.5 New Fence

I only took two photos yesterday and both were of the fence I just built at my girl's house.  So, this will be my photo of the day for yesterday.

365.4 My Supervisor For The Day

I'm happy to report that the fence is up!  Ms. Sassy made sure of it!  All that is left is the painting!

365.3 So Much Measuring

Even though I didn't take this photo it was taken with my camera so I'm counting it as my photo of the day for this project. 

The fence is coming along!

365.2 - My Toys For The Day

I started building a fence for my girl's front yard today and these were the toys I got to play with while doing just that.  She decided to go with the Oz Posts instead of using concrete for the posts, which seemed to be a good idea in theory but I quickly discovered today that they don't work so well in rocky areas of town.  Namely, the part of town in which she lives.  After pounding all 10 of them in I ended up driving back to the lumber yard, a quick 25 minute trip one way, to borrow their Oz Post Puller because 4 or 5 of them were in crooked.  Needless to say, I didn't get quite as far as I had planned with the project today but there is always tomorrow.  For today, I feel a sense of accomplishment.

365.1 Happy Girl

I've decided to make a second attempt at my 365 Photo Project.  I feel like my photographs are sort of all over the place as far as subjects, composition and what not so I'd like to use this time to find my style.  Today is day one!  

A Week of Quiet Introspection

Photo by Michael Holden

My girl is at Burning Man this week.  Which means I am hanging out with the critters at her place and taking some time this week to do a bit of introspection.

I've worked through a lot of my insecurities over the past year but also know that I have more work to do.  I'm a bit surprised about how I'm handling things lately, this week specially, but it's all very rational and well thought out, if that makes sense.

Instead of letting my emotions take hold of me based simply on my thoughts as opposed to the facts, I'm reeling myself in, sitting myself down and focusing on the now.  Focusing on the facts.  Those things that I know to be true.  Not things that I think up in my brain that are there to stir up my emotions and build up the walls again.  I'm tired of the walls.  I'm tired of turning my emotions off or being angry and bitter.  I'm tired of missing what's right in front of me and enjoying the moments I am blessed with while dwelling on what 'could' happen. 

Today I found myself missing her a lot and I allowed myself to feel it but I stopped myself from getting sad about it.  I was able to do that by remembering the amazing journey she's on of self discovery and growth and how blessed I am to bare witness to it.  Then I gave myself a pat on the back for the journey of self discovery and growth that I am on, as well.

Still, I'm counting the days until she returns.  While I'm counting, I've got plenty of projects to keep me busy.  Plenty of projects to help me to learn to stay in the moment.

“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom” - Anais Nin