365 Day Photo Project - Day 5

Relaxing

January 5, 2011

My cat, Cassie, enjoying the new to us bed in our new space.

Focusing On The Good

I've been working on putting some blank note card sets together with my photographs on the fronts of them and now have about 12 sets put together and posted on my Etsy storefront. So far I've had 11 sales since opening the shop a few months ago. While that isn't a lot of sales, it's most definitely a start and I'm excited about the possibilities.

Yesterday I took my set of St. Johns Bridge note cards to the St. Johns Booksellers and the owner said that she would like to sell 3 of them in her shop! I am very excited about this because not only am I getting my stuff out there, I'm also beginning to form partnerships with small businesses around town.

This morning I created a Facebook advertisement for my photography page in hopes of gaining more traffic to the page and, thereby, more traffic to my Etsy shop. It's been a productive day already.

Things are moving along with respect to my photography. I am happy about that.

Breakdown

I am a writer who is intimidated by the blank page at the moment.  This is something that I know I need to get used to but it’s still disappointing.  This sense of uneasiness in writing is difficult to deal with during this period of darkness. 

I go through these periods every so often and, to be honest, should probably be on some sort of chemical balancing tool in order to stay out of this space for longer periods of time.  Instead, I remain chemical free and out of balance. 

New Years Day brought with it a major breakdown for me and I found myself a sopping wet pile of emotion in front of a friend.  This is the sort of ‘show and tell’ that I don’t like to share with others.  It made the breakdown even more difficult for me.  Luckily, the night ended on a good note that involved beer, laughter, a portabella mushroom burger and French fries at a local pub.  In the end I was glad she was there to hand me tissues. 

I’ve struggled all of my life with actually feeling emotions.  There are times when I’m sure I’ve felt them but wasn’t totally sure of what it was I was feeling.  There are also times when I know I should be feeling something but don’t.  The lesson I learned in pushing them deep down inside was one I apparently learned a little too well.  What sort of life do you live outside of emotions and feelings?  Isn’t that what living is about? 

I have got to find a way to tap into that deep well inside me.  The one that holds all that I’ve pushed and tucked away.  There has to be a way. 

I need to feel again.

365 Day Photo Project - Day 4

Dinner

January 4, 2011

An avocado with soy sauce and a glass of red wine.  The dinner of champions. 

365 Day Photo Project - Day 3

My entire life is in transition at the moment.  Normally when this happens I at least have my daily job that I can go to where things are basically the same every day.  This time, I don't so it's a bit more difficult to move through this period of transition. 

These are a few reminders that I set up for myself in my new space to remind me that change is good and can, in itself, be inspiring. 

365 Day Photo Project - Day 2

I spent tonight at a friends house watching the last Sunday Night Football game of the regular season in HD on their really large flat screen.  Oh, I had a beer and ate some pizza, too.

My New Photo Project - Day 1

I've been contemplating beginning a 365 Day Photo Project this year and decided yesterday to go ahead with it.  Since it was January 1st, it seemed like a good day to begin.  Each day I will take and post at least one photo documenting my year in pictures.  I'm late posting this due to a major meltdown last night so you will see another post later tonight when I have today's photo ready.

I'm determined to stick with it as a way to practice and perfect my craft.  It will also be a good way to journal this year and help me find my focus.  I will still continue with my regular blog posts about life and my journey along the way.  It's just that now you'll get at least one post a day.

The above photo was shot at my friends house yesterday afternoon.  They invited me over to brew beer with them and I jumped at the opportunity.  My one and only venture into brewing beer at home didn't turn out so well so I was willing to learn exactly how it's done with fresh base, hops and yeast.  I'm looking forward to tasting the outcome of it in February when they plan to have a party and share it with friends.